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last weekend was one of my most "eventful" trips ever…

i had a really great time on my way to cebu last friday morning. i met Sarah Jane, a friend and a classmate i haven’t seen and talked for a long time in the ship…we chatted a lot and caught up on things. i already have lots of friends (mostly crew) so i introduced her to them. we made a friend, Carlo, who was introduced to us by one of the crews of the ship. i toured Sarah around the ship coz she said she haven’t been to many places there. we ate at the ship’s cafe and Carlo chatted with us for almost an hour. we had lots of laugh. he invited us to the first class accomodation suites where there is a sala. we chilled out there, he brought his guitar and we sang songs along with other ladies and gentlemen crews of the ship. Sarah told me she haven’t had that much fun on board a ship. i had a great time too. she asked me to stay at her bording house during the night coz she’s alone, so i slept there friday night.

on the other hand, my saturday night trip going back home was one of the most stressful trips ever. the trip i was supposed to be, where i booked in advance, got cancelled bcoz of mechanical problems of the ship. i had to fall in a very long line for ticket refund and book for another trip. the line was so long and service was not that fast, lots of people get anxious…everyone was so hot-headed, it was chaos. there was pushing around and yelling…really very annoying..just the last thing i wanted after a very mentally stressful day at school! luckily, i have a friend at the ticket office so i texted him to reserve a ticket for me so i was able to get in another ship that night…after the boat ride, the trip for home by bus was more stressful…when i got home sunday morning i was so tired i could barely smile!

well, it was all great experience nonetheless…

finally…

today i get to relax and unwind…these past few weeks been dead hectic…lots of things have happened, been to the edge and back…and now, well, let’s just say im a little more at peace than yesterday or the other day…im done with checking exams and exercises and finally submitted grades this afternoon. i still have to study for an exam next week but that’s next week…i’ll study then.

last night and this morning was, i can say, one of the best nights and mornings of my life…it’s not "eventful" if that’s what you’re thinking…it’s bcoz i slept early and woke up late, very very peaceful…never had that peaceful sleep for a long time…it was a dreamless sleep or at least i don’t remember any dreams…when i woke up i ate breakfast prepared by my mother then went back to sleep for a minute or two while listening to music…i love listening to music, better than watching a movie…and this morning reggae sounded really good so i played it over and over…everyone left for work and school so i was alone at home, it was great…i ate again then took a long bath, like really really long bath, almost an hour…it’s a great morning!

yesterday i was so depressed, i woke up feeling that way and my day went on feeling that way, and odd thing is that i was not really sure why…i had lots of stuffs on my mind that i couldn’t focus on anything…i felt so lost and didn’t know what to do…and, well, i did "things" that are not "logical"…here are some the things i did:

i came to school late, well, there’s nothing new with that…what’s different was that i never smiled. i noticed the look on my students’ faces when i entered the classroom and started the lesson immediately, i never even said "good morning" to them. they knew something’s off with me…there was a power failure so i dismissed the class early. usually when this happens, the faculty in our department gather at the office and chat (coz we can’t have classes when there is no electricity) and of course i always join (we always have lots of laughs) but i did not join yesterday, instead i went to the library straight to the fiction section. i randomly got hold of a book and started reading at the middle. i didn’t really understand what i was reading but i went on anyway and i actually finished reading to the end. i went home and ate lunch. my taste buds seemed numb coz i could taste anything. in the afternoon i didn’t have a class but i went to school anyway coz i couldn’t think of anything to do at home. nothing was worth watching on our non-cable tv and i can’t sleep coz of the heat. when i came to school the power was off again so i couldn’t use the computer and then again i couldn’t think of anything to do…i didn’t stay at the office coz i wasn’t in the mood for chitchat…i walked and walked slowly around the campus, not a smile on my face, looking at trees and students and cars that pass ’til i reached the multicab stop. i got in a multicab, which was going to the town. when i reached town i looked and walked around with no direction at all ’til i reached the photo studio where i usually have my picture taken when i needed to. then i thought of getting my photo taken so i went inside. i forced myself to smile during the shoot when i really didn’t feel like smiling. why the heck did i do this?!? after that i went the grocery store and bought some chocolates and potato chips…i know why i did this…chocolates and potato chips are always good anti-depressants for me and i think this is the best time for it. i went to my office and ate the chocolates and potato chips alone and really felt better…slowly, i was back to myself again.

i still can’t figure out what happened to me yesterday and why i did those things…oh well, we all have our days…

today i woke up feeling great, never felt this good in a while…i am myself again and thinking about the stuffs i did yesterday really makes me smile…

today is one of those days where there are actually so many things that need to be done and so little time but my mind is not set to doing…and so here i am blogging…if some people talk or sing or dance or do whatever to express themselves, well, i blog…i’ve had 3 blog sites before this but got tired of them so i decided to blog it here at friendster.

im not really feeling well today physically, mentally and emotionally. physically bcoz i have a slight fever and a flu…it’s really not comfy to give a lecture right now but i have to…mentally bcoz last week was my grad school midterm which was really mentally exhausting and it feels like i really haven’t taken a break during the weekend plus some pressure in my teaching job too…emotionally bcoz my day didn’t really kick off right. my sister awakened me while i still really wanted some shut eye bcoz i slept so late last night, ruined my mood instantly…then when i came to school, i was told it’s low voltage so again i can’t compute my grades. the fluctuation in electricity since sunday is really giving me a headache…yesterday i got a tracer from the registrar bcoz i haven’t submitted grades but it really isn’t my fault bcoz there’s always a brownout or low voltage or high voltage…and when it’s normal, i have a class! im really goin’ nuts!!!

sorry, i don’t mean to rant at my first blog but i can’t edit it coz i have to log out coz my UPS is beeping again…grrr…grrrhhhh….