blue room

blog time…(drum roll please!)

i’m back! what’s up with that? it’s just that i felt like i have risen from the grave and now i’m alive again…*smile*

let me explain…(drum roll again please!)

well, just as i was at the heights of my ever busy week (due to project deadlines, final exams, grade submission deadlines and all…) i got sick. imagine that! of all times…i got fever for 2 days which started the night after submitting my AI project. it has actually been a mystery why i always (like it almost never miss) get sick right after a major exam or project…my classmates wonder about that too. i’ll try to figure that out later. my mother kinda panicked when she found out so she came over (we are islands apart) to check on me, brought me to the doctor to find out what’s wrong with me. i did tell here not to worry ‘coz im fine, it was just due to fatigue (physical and/or mental) and that i just needed some rest. but she won’t hear of it, she came anyway. i guess mothers are just like that…the doctor prescribed some antibiotics coz my cough got worse and some meds for my ever-worsening sinusitis. my fever was gone and my cough got better but my sinusitis went from worse to worst. i was not able to buy the med for my sinusitis coz it isn’t available at any drugstore coz they are all out of stocks (probably bcoz it isn’t manufactured anymore)…and so for days i suffered with sinusitis…this might sound simple (it’s just sinusitis, you might say) but it’s not. those who have the same problem will surely agree with me. sinusitis means headache, headache, and more headache…i couldn’t focus, i couldn’t sleep, i couldn’t eat (i’d feel like throwing up), and i couldn’t breath…i simply couldn’t do anything! the deadline for the grades was days ago but i just couldn’t beat it…it’s just bad. i knew i needed rest, so i did. screw those deadlines! thank goodness, now i’m feeling better…it’s still there but it’s more bearable…so now i can do more. in fact, i’m down to my last grade sheet. tomorrow, this will be completed…

and that’s the story of my physical breakdown…bow!

another day started with dragging myself out of bed…i was still really sleepy when my alarm clock beeped off, unfortunately i have to get started with my busy day…i purposely placed the alarm out of my reach so i’d have to stand to turn the annoying beep off so that i’d be forced to get out of bed…i was still tired from yesterday’s busy-ness but well, it’s another day and so i have to live it and start new…

my day’s dead hectic but it’s not that bad coz earlier i just heard one of my fave songs that i haven’t heard in a long time…nothing could be more relaxing…oh…i have to get back to my busy day (and super busy week!)…

I have a nice day (so far) today…

I felt great this morning…I don’t know, I just woke up feeling good on the inside though not so good on the outside (I think im coming down with a flu, yikes I hope not). I started my day with the usual caffeine doze, then went to church (Im an organist)…Even through all the pressure with work and studies—-my students’ and my final exams next week, my OS report this saturday, exams to make, papers to check, grades to compute, lessons to study, etc, I still felt so light and I really don’t know why. Maybe bcoz the weather was great this morning—–not too sunny, quite cloudy, no rain (though it was about to rain, and it did in the afternoon). Or maybe bcoz I had some sleep yesterday…*grin* hehehe I slept through my 12-1 pm class…I didn’t mean it though…An hour worth of deduction from my salary there but it cannot pay for the physical and mental rest I got. Anyway, we’re done with our lessons, I was just supposed to conduct a review. I really didn’t mean to fall asleep. I was ready for work but decided to lie down awhile since it was still too early for my class, but then I dozed off. When I woke up it was already 2pm, too late…Oh well, I needed that rest anyway. Didn’t realize I needed it so badly. So there I was, savoring each second of the beautiful morning with a cup of plain rice, three longganisa, moist sunny-side up and a cup of green tea…hmmm…nothing feels like a hearty breakfast and a blissful heart! (I know mabaw ra kaayo ko’g kalipay…oh well…)

It poured so hard this afternoon and I got caught in the rain inside a fastfood (sort of) with my former boardmates so we ate. I loved it. I love the smell of rain and I love eating with rain on the background. But nothing beats staying at home when it’s raining cats and dogs, on your bed, reading a good book, eating with coffee or hot cocoa on the side…hmmm…I wish it rains tonight before I go to bed. But rain could also be very annoying (understatement!) when you gotta go out to work or school or anywhere especially if you don’t have an umbrella. Well, timing is everything!

When the rain stopped I went to the parlor to get a haircut. I’ve been wanting to do so all week, I just didn’t have the budget. Why? Well, call me corny or whatever but getting a new look is a good emotional stress reliever for me. And yes, I’ve been to the edge of emotional sanity recently and now I think I’m back. Some people have judged me UNFAIRLY (well, it’s bad enough to be judged at all). Naturally, I became angry but I finally let go of that anger without thinking of getting even or even confronting. I think confrontation would lead to a lot of trouble, I don’t want trouble. I’m not angry anymore. I’m not the type who keeps grudges, it doesn’t make me a better person and it doesn’t give me peace. I have forgiven them. To forgive is to forget, they say and I agree. Technically, I won’t forget (as in, erase in my hard drive) but I won’t bring it up anymore. I let bygones be bygones, leave the past behind and not use it as a weapon. In fact, I met the people who made not-so-nice things to me this afternoon and I made "pansin". I would not have done that had I seen them last week. Success!

I’m just happy right now (though not feeling so well) with myself and my new hair!

according to tickle.com:

em, your true color is Blue!

You’re blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you’d rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn’t that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they’re soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!