Archive for February, 2007

if…

Wednesday, February 28th, 2007

I would like to share one of my favorite poems. This one talks about life, personal behavior and maturity, how to be a real "man", and how to be a good someone. I draw a lot of inspiration from this and I hope you will too. Enjoy!

IF

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream–and not make dreams your master,
If you can think–and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings–nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And–which is more–you’ll be a Man, my son!

–Rudyard Kipling

right now…

Tuesday, February 27th, 2007

i’m kinda bored so i’ll just type whatever that comes to my mind…i do this quite often and it’s very relaxing…

ahhh…i’m full…[busog kaayo ko...]… when will i ever get started with CFPL, my PL project…and Expert Systems too!…and Software Eng’g too…hayyyyyyy! another late student tsk! tsk! i’m excited about sir elmer’s suggestion for my special problem…finally something i could be really interested…i need to do more research…it should be no problem if it’s something i wanna know…do significant bother and i have a future? i’m not in-love, that’s for sure…ngano mi-enter?! here i go again…can i really trust not-so-significant bother? when will i ever be in a "normal" relationship? whoa…my students are actually quiet, this is a milestone! i hope she’d text again, i’d really like a good text fight and win, of course…what to do with him? i miss my sisters…i need to finish my last gradesheet…oh-oh…i just had my fourth cup of coffee…not good…i think i’m being too dependent on coffee…i wanna talk to someone, but i can’t say it here…i’m so amnesiac! just a moment ago i was thinking of something, now i don’t what it is…ahhh…my head is aching again…i wish i could lie down and sleep right now…i hope payday is tomorrow, i badly need cash…weeeee…so far i’ve had 211 views on my friendster profile…hmmm…another resignation…i’m so sick about the issue that i refuse to comment on anything…what will happen in the next days? i wish i could read people’s minds…i gotta pee…but i’m so lazy to stand and go to the nearest comfort room…i hope bebs gets the scholarship…i’m 95% confident she will…ohhh…i’m having pimples…tsk! tsk! i reeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllllllllllyyyyyyyy need to pee…

my phlegmatism *whatever*

Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
making friends has not been really easy for me since is was a kid…my father once told me that when i was in nursery he worried so much about me because i was really shy…i was well-behaved, i don’t throw tantrums but i also don’t talk or play with other kids, i just sit at one corner look at other kids play or i just play on my own… well, i do remember my nursery years and my father was right i was shy but being on my own didn’t bother me at all… to make friends i just wait for them to come and talk to me first…if they don’t, i take interest in watching them instead…watch them play, watch them laugh, watch them fight, watch some cry…and i really enjoyed it…when im at a party (which i dont usually come unless i have to), i don’t dance, i don’t talk unless someone talks to me, i just watch everyone…people would think i’m not enjoying it but i am…i really am…people could be very interesting at times…

hahay…senselessness!

Thursday, February 15th, 2007

why would you ask a question that you know the answer of? why would you even ask a question without even thinking if it’s worth asking? if you are given a set of instructions, why would you ask what to do when every detail of what you have to do is clearly stated in the instructions? if you were just told to do something, why is your first instinct to ask it back? [does "get one-fourth sheet of paper" "one-fourth, ma'am?" sound familiar to you?] why would a question, in no time, lead to a conclusion without a word from those concerned? [what i mean is, "ma'am, mag quiz ta karon?" "ha? mag quiz ta?" "ma'am, ngano mag quiz man ta nga wala pa man nag discuss?" and all these were said even before the teacher could say a single word!] for me (as of the moment), the answer to all these questions is simply STUPIDITY. i know i’m being a bit harsh but that’s what i think.

actually, i’m just ranting about some of my students. i just don’t want to be asked "senseless questions" [questions that are released without having passed through the lowest form of mental quality control called common sense *perhaps commons sense is not so common afterall*]. i don’t want to be asked questions that are asked just for the sake of asking.

a word for my students out there: please, if you have to ask anything think about it first. maybe you know the answer all along, you just have to scatch deeper than the surface of your nut a little…and if you are asked to read the instructions carefully, please read the instructions carefully! and most importantly, please listen with you ears, not your mouth…

A Math Romance

Wednesday, February 7th, 2007

[Warning: Not for gifted children!]

i got this somewhere and it really made me laugh…the story is not "laughable", it’s how "exact" it is [math is an exact science]…i couldn’t find the name of the author, sorry…

A Math Romance

They integrated from the very point of origin. Her curves were continuous, and even though he was odd, he was a real number. The day their lines first intersected, they became an ordered pair. From then on it was a continuous function. They were both in their prime, so in next to no time they were horizontal and parallel. She was awed by the magnitude of his perpendicular line, and he was amazed by her conical projections. "Bisect my angle!" she postulated each time she reached her local maximum. He taught her the chain rule as she implicitly defined the amplitude of his simple harmonic motion. They underwent multiple rotations of their axes, until at last they reached the vertex, the critical point, their finite limit. After that they slept like logs. Later she found him taking a right-handed limit, that was a problem, because it was an improper form. He meanwhile had realized that she was irrational, not to mention square. She approached her ex, so they diverged.

it’s the hair!

Wednesday, February 7th, 2007

how am i? it’s difficult to explain but i feel like i’m kinda "at peace". [i'm not dead, ok!] i don’t know, there is just this relaxing, comforting, peaceful (?) feeling despite all the angsts, frustrations, stress(eseses) that i’ve been blogging about, not to mention physical exhaustion leading to near breakdown [which i haven't blogged about yet but we'll come to that later]…i don’t know, it almost feels like bliss…but why? how did that happen? i can’t think of anything significant that happened today…or maybe that’s the point…anywayz, i hope that whatever it is the feeling stays. i could get used to this…

on the high

Friday, February 2nd, 2007

yeah, i’m high right now hehehe coz the seminar this morning turned out so much better than i expected. i just conducted a seminar, yey! i came to school this morning confused, not knowing what to do…or maybe i was just nervous…i thought they won’t listen, i thought i can’t do it, i thought i’d choke…or maybe i was just freaking out…oh well, i didn’t turn out as i thought. i wasn’t good at it, i’m just a novice (in fairness to me, it was my first time) but i did it nonetheless…the sleepless nights that i spent on it definitely paid off. i don’t care if it wasn’t good for those who were there, basta it was good for me…hahay! i’d probably not do it again…tama na to…hehe